So I know that it happens to everybody but I am in a weird mood. It started with just being really antsy/squirrelly. Then it moved to going stir-crazy. When I decided to sit down and write and read it changed completely around. Now I sit on my bed in my sweats completely happy. It is funny how a mood can change so quickly. I wonder how many of our decisions are based on mood and how many are based on sound judgment. That would be a good study to conduct. Even for myself. How many decisions do I make on sound judgment and how many are based on emotions?
The thing is most emotions are just chemicals firing off. Lately mine have been firing in all directions whenever they feel like it. My daily routine is so off. Since my jaw has been wired shut I have changed many things. I cannot workout as often or as intensely as before which changes the physical/chemical makeup of my body. My diet has completely changed since I cannot open my teeth to eat food. I miss eating, chewing on food and swallowing. This not only messes with my chemical makeup but it also messes with my head. Food is something that I enjoy. It is a small thing and admittedly a dumb thing. But try for a week not eating solid food, not chewing anything. Switch to all dairy-based shakes and soup diet. It will drive you crazy.
I cannot speak properly either. I love to talk and interact with people. I always said that my only real talent was talking to people. Now that is gone as well. Maybe this is a time for to develop other skills. Oh well, different topic, different day. I also am unable to sing, which I love to do. It is one of the few pure expressions of emotions that I have found. Losing that is like losing my left arm. I can function but it is not fun.
All these factors and more that I am forgetting have added together to put me into a Funk. It is odd how simple things can push you off-kilter. And now sitting and writing is helping significantly. Simple things can move you back to center. I guess it is important to figure out what it is in life that keeps you in line, and what pushes you off. Avoid the bad and when you do move a bit off kilter, remember those things that keep you level.
